Well, today was a tad bit stressful for me and very depressing. As I can be a very sensitive person, harsh speeches upon me is just as bad as a slap across the face. There is a girl in the office who is very immature and lacks self control. Her words are sharp, her actions reckless, portraying her to be the most difficult person anyone can ever handle. I know that it is unfair of me to speak of her behind her back but that is the reality of whats going on. I know of her past, I know of her struggles, and I'm beginning to be aware of what a mean person I actually am by saying all this. I am supposed to be empathetic. I am supposedly great in acceptance. So shall I be. I shall forgive, forget, and consult. That's that.
Then there is this other who speaks without cease of anything that is against their own personal ideas, which bugs me. I can listen if a ear is needed, in fact, I like to listen. I could even say that I love listening. Well now that I have made myself clear of that point, I have to contradict me. Not for the first time, I got so fucking fed up of hearing complains that go on and on as if the world has no end. Wait, I am not saying that I don't like hearing complains because I believe in listening to all that one has to say as it is a vital step in understanding a person better. However, this person dramatizes complains as though it to be a stage play for the millions. The top paragraph need not be necessary if I didn't hear what I heard. Immediately after each word, I got more and more depressed, even till now. Probably it could be my fatigue mix frustration but all the same, I am pissed and bothered. I feel negative energy creeping on my skin which needs to be rid off before I fall back into another bout of depression. Forgive and forget I shall do, meditate upon peace that God can bring.
I just read a friend's status on Facebook that gives the idea of not thinking of one's problems to be big as others can have bigger problems. I disagree this entire statement. First of all, one should not think of a problem as to be big because no problem is big in general. Believing in the bible, what we are given, we are capable of handling. Why would we be given matters that we cannot handle? This is a topic that raises questions on every aspect imaginable, which I can think of many but unable to cover them all. First of, the human mind is complex but brilliant in every single way. Darwin would probably say that all creatures have natural survival instincts including man which I cannot agree more. This natural state along with the complexity of the auto functions of the mind, as say, the subconscious, is a cunning tool to overcome any challenges or problems that one may face. The question however is whether we choose to face the problem, or better still, whether we choose to accept knowing we can face it. Seeing it this way, no problem is big. It gets big when emotions tire us down or when we so mindfully compare our life with others. Another idea in the statement says to compare problems with those whom they think have greater ones to allow their personal problems seem smaller. Lets begin it this way, why compare in the first place? Us human live for ourselves but are responsible for each other. Our responsibility is not to compare but to care as each individual is set in this world for a specific purpose. The problems they face is an obstacle to their purpose, thus they face it knowing it simply to be a problem. Why should we label sizes to our problems when we should be seeing it only as problems? Every life is unique. What one may handle well, another can't. A starving African may handle hunger better than the rich, as the rich may handle politics better than the African. Nurture explains this. Thus labeling should be forbidden. I wish I could write this with more time on my hands, to allow me to research on materials and to allow my thoughts to race me an answer but unfortunately, I don't have much free time.
I want to write on different topics too but I'm dead tired. Time is 11:21PM. Ta!
PS: I have moved on over my former crush (yay me!) which means that it is time to scout again! Its about high time too that I be with someone for being single all this while had me losing the touch of being in a relationship.
PS: I have moved on over my former crush (yay me!) which means that it is time to scout again! Its about high time too that I be with someone for being single all this while had me losing the touch of being in a relationship.
