Ate My Mind.

Left for Mid Valley at nine this morning with Azril, Lydia and Maria. I bought 4 shirts, and a perfume. I actually paid half for the perfume because of the vouchers I received for being one out of two best agents at work. Overall, I enjoyed this time of shopping very much and also the latter, where we had really good food at Tony Roma's. After Mid Valley, we came back to Seremban to change before heading to Port Dickson for a short dip. Wait - I can't do this. I'm just not in the mood of talking what I did today. I don't quite get the end of the day though, which is after a 4 hours karaoke session. Something happened within the group and there was a display of attitude which is definitely not to my liking. I seriously thought all the dramas had been dropped when we decided to unite again as friends. Why don't some people just appreciate these moments because for a fact I know that they will not last! Nothing fucking last. I waited far too long for this yet so soon can I already smell the decay of separation. I do not want to go through it again. See it, please. That as much as change is inevitable, don't surrender to it. Have you not learned anything from Sheryl Crow's Fight For This Love? Maybe the spots on a leopard really do not change and selflessness taught only by absence. To add to this cup, my longing for you has unfortunately been increased all the more. The economics of passions and desires. This really is a very complicated emotion that I myself am unable to understand and control. It makes me weak and I despise feeling powerless. I'm chained so strongly to it I feel hatred building despite it's opposite. Which could probably explain why doors wouldn't budge. I can think of a million songs to sing right now. More to add, but I think I'd stop here. It's pointless, I find this is. Humanity takes comfort in lies. I take comfort in all this hatred. The joy of ending a joyous day in stark rage. Fuck.