I don't know how I shall even begin describing how I feel. It's a mixture of pain and so much of pain, and the greatest pressure points of pain felt right here in my heart. I do not understand what I want. I can't live with you, yet I can't live without you. Living without you feels worst than living with you. God why can't I just stop having these feelings for you and just move on already. It is driving me insane thinking of the million and one things that don't stop hurting my insides. Please, I beg you God one million times to release me from this wretched state. Be my savior and heal me of this heartache. I will admit defeat and come to recognize that perfection is not within me but within the relationship of myself and everything else. Grant me God, one more, just one more chance in this affair and I'd forever live with it. I can not go on for I feel so weak at the giggle of death. I feel tired. Please.
