Small.

So I watched "Eat Pray Love" and I thought it to be really good. Also, inspiring. A few days of adventure and self searching is nice, but a whole year! Now that is amazing. Maybe I should sign a contract with myself that I should attempt doing such as what Elizabeth did and see where I head, and see what I might learn about life, and myself. It really must be wonderful to spend much time discovering creation rather than building a foundation. Just 3 days alone and the heart sees differently, yet alone a year. I can only imagine. I can try. What could she have felt making that first decision of leaving everything behind. It is not easy and for that, a big salute to her. I have got to read her book.

On a side note, as our palms, so are relationships. We tend to cross lines thinking we're permitted to, or simply not knowing at all, but this I feel all should know. One's life comes to a line halting the next. We do not force decisions for others as we do not want another to rule our lives. So we do not cross lines which borders another's life for we simply can't, for we simply should not. Unless of course, we're given full permission to do so. Them who judge, whether consciously or not, be judged themselves. As for the tongue come pass, no more will it be the same. Our minds, be it.

Figurines.

I tried, I really did. They're not showing support in any way. In fact, they're luring me to the opposite direction of where I'm heading. It's sad really that people are as you expect them to be, with no exceptions. How do I do this I wonder? Go radical or give up. These are my options right now, and I have till tomorrow to make my choice.

"People are as I expect them to be, certainly with no exceptions."

As I was sitting in the moving bus, I reminisced. Houses, rainbow, action figure, box, basin, bus, stairs, TV, drink, fly, fireworks, hall, friends, school, tree, family, maid, noodles. These are just a few prominent words of images that came to mind. They may seem random but they mean a lot to me. They mean life; for they were my earliest memories, my upbringing. How wonderful they were, memories are.

Need more time off again. To think, to reflect, to understand. So, hopefully plans of camping by the beach will come to past this week.

Tables Wedge.

Sounds nicer that way. Maybe.

Well, I've been doing some reading on healthy living and am driven to try being a vegetarian. I will succeed if given the chance but currently, living with a meat-loving family makes it difficult. Nevertheless, I shall pass bouts of influence and see whether they will succumb to my choice of lifestyle. Perhaps when I start living on my own should I then attempt to be a vegan.

Which leads to this, I'm considering an all independent living. The salary I'm earning should probably provide me with the extras to save, inclusive of shelter, food, and entertainment. I dream and had lived some dreams. We think we may like it having what we want, but only when we be at the moment of living that want, that we truly know what it feels like having the want in the first place, and of most times, it is not as how we expect it to be. Right now, I dream a life of solitude for I see the peace and joy that comes from it. I might not like it when I actually have this dream come true, but for now, I want it. Perhaps I should make a list.

Listings. A whole lot on it. It pleases me seeing items getting crossed off it. Living how I see fit with less to without external influence.

Heck, Busted!

Oh well, it moves when it stays. Nothing much that can be done about it. Denial comes for the weak, brought upon them who disregard their selves. I won't deny if that moment occurs.

"Be a man!" says Russell Peters in one of his acts, thus, a heart of lion shall I take on.

Given the chance (I ask for one too many), certainly would I no longer wish being placed in situations as such which is felt currently. But not many have the courage to do fully that they wish to do because the many now are made up of a society fearing bunch.

I think I have learned, through many attempts, the art of enjoying instantaneous happiness.

Yet again once more, I miss the rocks, the sea, the beauty, the perfection of nature, very much.

Being.

I'm missing it very much. That one moment on the rocks where perfection was the view to my eyes. As the sun ticks the moment's last, I can remember myself being in the rush to leave as I did not want to witness the end of such a perfect moment. I had feel that it would have been much easier to just walk away fast without turning back than to say goodbye to momentary happiness. For even happiness though short, will soon leave because joy robs energy one has for life. When much of this energy is taken for happiness without leaving time for it to be replenished, one simply spends too much, leaving the remaining time to be burdensome and filled with the opposite. She taught me a lot. Nature, she teaches if only we're willing to listen. I wasn't ready to listen but whats spoken cannot be retrieved. Now that I've heard, I want more of it, but more can't come because more has to be seek. Thus my mind had been made up, that once of every month, I shall seek. The more you know, the more you want to know because you feel the least of knowing. I feel the least of knowing. I feel as if I don't know and I thought I had known but actually I don't. Truly as we ask ourselves of what we really want in life, we're speaking not from our own minds, but from a mind tainted of life's experiences. I wish to know more for this being is much more than education and ambition. Much more, is this being.

Green & Bus.

She was sitting by the window when I walked in.

A long time ago it had been but still,

She's still there, or here.

Maybe.

Walk Less Talk.

Upon knowing I would have 3 days off, I packed my bag, white lied past my parents, and took the bus up north to an island. I spent my days trying my best to be silent because that was what I wanted for this trip. Only when one's lips are sealed will thoughts be allowed to run freely, at least for me that is. Unfortunately yet blessed me, I became friends with a tourist, an Iranian whom I have met on the bus ride to the island. I had the first day for myself because we went our separate ways but the following two days we spent together by the beach. I enjoyed the moments of my solitude but his company was joyful too because I would not have experience the beautiful setting of the sun if so happen we did not decide to climb the rocks. Overall, the journey was a very meaningful one to me for I had discovered many things about myself, and also generally about life. Ralph was absolutely right, just once would get you hook on  to go for again and again. Rarely will you find people who would like travelling solo but I guess it is how and why one does it.