No Peace.

My fault really for wanting to use the Internet so badly coming to this cyber cafe at one-ish in the morning with the idea of having to go to work tomorrow along with the noise these my-race-of-people are making, playing what I find to be unproductive silly online games (which I used to play too). Plus the idea of seeing children here also taunts my judgemental left eye into wondering what's left of the sane. Creepy crawly spider up the neck... I shan't speak nor linger here more for the sound of closing shutters of the cafe and the idea of being with this group ain't my cup of tea.

5 Top Wants.

I saw Adreanna having this and so I thought I should have one too because she is like so cool like oh my gawd. Well, here goes:

#5. Consume much books.

#4. Learn several languages, mainly French and I'm surprise we have this in common Adre but I have been wanting to learn sign language for some time now.

#3. Do everything that can be done around the world.

#2. Find love, that would last.

#1. Die peacefully at a ripe old age.

And It Crawls Back To Me Again.

I need a pause button for life. To basically get things sorted out before they fall into ruins again. At the moment, there is much that I wish to tell but none can be mentioned right now because my brain is in such a mode that it rather just put a full stop to whatever that is occurring up there. Cameron trip was a-okay! Once more, I learned new things about myself, made new friends, and lost parts of myself too. That sounded very horrifying but true it is. I think I might have left something of me up that mountain which I can't seem to know what because... well just because. Once more, I have fallen into a daze of confusion. Nothing new there. Curiosity always gets the best out of me and Priya should know more of this. Then there was the visit to the orphanage which was really an eye opener and an awaken called desire. Met more friends there whom I wish they would experience the abundance of love. What else, then there is work. I turn myself on autopilot and simply glide through days without much difficulty though at times I am personally required to make checks on how things would turn out to be. Depression; please note my hint of sarcasm as I thank you for coming back into my life. I got distracted for several moments but at least you did allow me to carry on as I please for that two months just standing by watching me. Else that, everything is on the ground.

Reasons To Smile.

I am so pleased to know that I am not alone in this matter. It's a major sort-of relieve and huge amounts of feeling good. On the way back from the terminal, a favorite techno song was playing in the car and my mind temporarily wandered far off with crazy ideas of all sorts. I can only imagine what our minds would be like if we could control the flow of logic interference to our creative side. Besides that, memories tickle me at every given chance of thought. I am feeling happy and hence, the smiles.

A Little Bit of Sunshine.

"People have ideas of so many bad stuffs. Where's the good?"

Such As A Finger and Throat.

I supported you when you were called a bitch. I said otherwise. I helped you through matters not of my concern. At the end of the day, you turn to my face and say what you have said. You truly disgust me. It is a wonder you were even called a bitch in the first place by your close friend. Practice what you preach honey for eyes are on you and words spread faster than wildfire. As for the one beside you, the stench of fucks hypocrisy is fatal to my soul. Shame on you for bearing such beauty for inside your depth is of a puddle. I cannot take this anymore. A major masking crowd. I'll stick a finger down my throat to purge ye filths out of me.

Thumbs Up.

She rocked it out. Little can you expect from those who seek fame for themselves, who speak highly and profusely of their piousness. It came in highly unexpected. Caught me off guard it did. Nothing much from them who speak and have the impression of their shoes being good. She, of little less words but much more concern had captured me at my weakest with my defenses down. Truly was I amazed and I was in frantic search of words to reply. I say, well done to prove that the tails are indeed the heads and the heads shame upon their acts. Boy I just love what I know now and have seen. It taught me well this circumstance did. I'm all smiles.

Goals and targets are fixed. Colors changed to fade in contrast with their begins. I like this. This being the truth coming out in the open like a peeled onion. Hidden at it's very core, savoring each moment as one tears open its layers to attain treasure. I need courage and more. Perhaps a delicious stuffing of suited vegetarian cuisine. Ah, perfectness. The backward embrace and flow through of love. I doubt anyone would be able to spot treasure beneath these written onions.

I smile, for now and to come. Each day with plenty of surprises. Maybe not really surprising but you can make them to be. If you knew you would be thrown a surprise party, yet still pretend not knowing, you can actually find yourself being surprised. Truly! So I shall venture days in pretense and let me take pleasure of not knowing what is to come. I want to extract all from everything.