So in all honesty, with all the political fiascos happening back home, I have no intention to be a part of any of it. Go fight, yay you, but me, nah, I'm happy here, lazying around wasting what little money I've got trying to do what I please, and hoo-hah, trying to be, well, happy. A friend decided to check the balance in his account in front of me, and he, not bother hiding the figures had me seeing them, and I sure was envious after. We discussed a little on our finances after I bombarded him with questions of all sorts on i.e. methods, mindset, he uses/has to be able to accumulate such a sum in just two years. He is not the kind who sits at home, and eats crumbs, but we're talking of a guy who shops the brands in Europe, then goes back home to collect rent from two houses of which he owns, and does what I do in our free time, but yet, behold, that six figure amount. I mean, how? I once heard from a fifty something lady-colleague who in all her years probably had gathered some wisdom and maturity, said that some people are just not meant to do it all (buy houses, save large sums of money, strike balance etc.). I took it as a fact of life, only because I believe that that somebody could be me, and that it gives me great comfort in accepting defeat from my own mind. I have entered the working class at a young age, and one might think in all my years of serving the companies I worked, am working for, have me a little money aside but I don't. I am clueless to what I do with my money, not clueless to how I spend, but on how to save. I know I eat whatever I like, drink whenever I want, do whatever I please, and have been so please with myself, content to fulfilling all my needs yet deep down, more like way up in the area-of-influences of the mind, it feels wrong. People say I should start saving, be responsible like an adult, buy properties, have an education, take a wife, marry, and reproduce, but what if I say that this isn't what I want. It is frustrating growing up, makes me nauseous to know that I am not doing the things that I should be doing. Then there's that article I read that people in their twenties should not act irresponsibly because life, after all, is just lived once, and that one time should "mandate to the norms of social mentality and conduct", as I put it in my own words. I'm tired. I just want to live a simple life, possibly without the need to worry to save, without the worry to have the urge to buy properties, and without worry at all. God, help me.
