My newly bought book, 'The Alchemist' is by far one of the best I have ever read. I finished it in a day because it was a feel-good item to me. I am definite to read it again because going so fast at it the first time surely had me leaving out details. The author introduced me to a whole new concept of life and my imagination was stretched out far. The book had had a hard hit on me probably because of my fascination towards matters concerning religion and spirituality. Well, now that my eyes are opened to many new possibilities of ideas, I am very well to experiment with each and every one of them.
Now that the word is out, I figured that it would be harmless writing the following. I cannot believe myself in the first place to have fallen for you. I asked myself why and that little bit of soul searching I did gave me the answers but still, I have to ask more questions. Before I proceed, I shall share this little discovered bit first. Letting one know of your affection will leave you feeling less affectionate. I believe that I thrilled on the secret of this crush. Thus when the secret was revealed, the thrill deceased. What was once a guilty passionated pleasure is now simply an innocent fading emotion. Closed chapters has quicken the pace of me moving on, now knowing the outcome of what was once hoped for. The time between first knowing, and result knowing was enjoyable in a sadistic manner. Disappointments increase along expectations. I expected a lot given the impression, but every fail expectation was a stab directed to my heart. Expectation is false happiness, and when you crush happiness, you get sadness. Yet knowing that, I chose to expect more. This is a lesson I'm taking to heart because next time, I would be better at dodging unwanted feelings. So personally now, I'm moving over faster than I thought I would. A crush, will be, but a crush.
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